I like bluntness so thanks.

How is looking for friends creepy? That really bothers me to be called that. I guess it would help explain why I am alone. Is it the age range I settled on that is creepy? I wouldn't date a 30 year old even if I could but is it wrong to talk to one? It seems like by that age they would be fully adult and is there something wrong with two adults talking and hanging out casually?

There are a fair amount of women on that site close-ish to my age that say they are looking for friends. It seems the rules for men and women are different I guess. If I were looking for a hookup, I would say so. There is a check box for that so why would they not say that instead of 'looking for friends'?

It seems that I truly am socially inept, huh?

I am very honest and earnest about looking for friends and it is not just because I am not attractive to anyone. I don't think I am mentally in a place where I am ready for that sort of thing. Perhaps I am not ready for friends, even the most casual of friendships?

I think I am kind and fair to myself. It is not like I post on those sites that I am, I just feel like putting my thought process out here is helpful in getting to the root of my issues.

I haven't said hi or anything to anyone. Few people write enough to know if I have anything in common or enough to be able to say anything but hi. I do scan their profile quickly if I see things like energetic or always on the go I pass since I couldn't keep up with them with my physical and MH issues or if they are looking for a hookup. Things like that. I think I end up liking less than 50% of the profiles so I don't think I am taking a shotgun approach. But I definitely need to cast as wide of a net as possible. As a woman, you probably don't need to. I dunno.