Hey, I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia and recently some voices i have been hearing have started to tell me that i have done bad things in the past.
One of the things I am told is that I hurt someone in the past. I am a compulsive and pathalogical liar, so it is often hard for me to differentiate between what REALLY happened and what I have made up in my mind or told someone as a lie. Hurting people is an irrational fear i have had since i was young but recently this voice is making me worry even more.
When i was younger i witnessed an accident but a few days ago, this voice managed to convince me that it was not an accident and that it was my fault. I also became convinced that this was something i had worried about for years. I was pretty much certain that this was true and i even told someone.
Yet today, when looking back and trying to think more clearly, i realised that it was not true that i had worried about this for years. I now realise that it was just the voice telling me that.
I am just so confused; i was 100% sure that i had done this. The voice made me so confused that i made up a whole story to go along with it.
I am just so terrified at the moment, the voice had me so sure that i had hurt someone when it was not true. I even told someone that it was true. I am questioning my entire past now.
Does anyone have any tips on how to tell the difference between a
'made-up' memory and a real one???
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