Hugs coolibrarian. What happened? Sounds worrying and it's even harder if you've got no support at the moment.

I'm on day 4/19. Ridiculous counting days like this anyway. I'm struggling and really want to talk to t. I feel like such a drain on my family. I can't be a good mum to my children but there's no other way but to keep trying. And can't handle having to eat and feel so fat. And I'm overanalysing last session.. t told me to try and recognise that this is a pattern and that by think I negatively of her or what she might think of me I'm trying to stop myself from review something good = her care and our relationship and good work together. She told me that's my pattern.. stopping myself of getting anything nice or good because I feel I don't deserve it. But I struggle to recognise this. She swears she really likes me and thinks very positively about me and deeply cares about me. I think the fact that she's still not written me the letter she's been promising for weeks means I'm on the bottom of her list of importance and anything to do with me is an unpleasant thing to be avoided at all cost. I might have to email her if this continues all week. Otherwise it'll ruin my holiday and I'll ruin everyone else's.