My T just became a grandmother last week, and I’m finding myself so jealous. I know she must have been at the hospital for the birth. I know she must’ve been so sweet and kind to her daughter in law. I wish I could have my T as my mother in law. I’m jealous of the new baby too, to have my T as a grandmother. I know these feelings are normal but I’m so embarrassed of them. But honestly I’m just so sad and aching and full of grief for what I wish could be for me.