Thank you for responding. I guess what I meant by being my fault is because i wish after she told me I had been more insistent about talking to her about how uncomfortable and confused her telling me that made me. There's a part of me, the logical common sense part of me that totally understands what you mean. God knows what other crazy **** she might put me through if I kept seeing her. There's obviously something wrong with her. But this other part of me is just can't get this through my head. It's literally driving me crazy. Maybe once I get an answer from the NASW I might get some peace. My anxiety is so bad I thought I was having a heart attack. I was so sure I went to the ER. They ran a bunch of tests - nothing was wrong with me. I don't know what's gonna happen to her. I don't think she'll get her licence taken away - I hate that there's a part of me that still cares about her. Why? She obviously doesn't care about me. Her references were for total ****. There was no continuation of care for me. Thank God for my husband being so kind and patient with me. I probably would have tried to kill myself again if he wasn't around. I used to take so much pride in the fact I was never suicidal. All that's gone now. I learned a lot about myself. I didn't talk about what happened with my teacher for 13 years. I had just finished tell this social worker all the hard parts. I was just at the beginning point of being able to find peace with all that and now there's a whole new problem. And like you said - WHAT THE HELL did she think I'd get out of knowing about this dream?. Anyway thank you for responding. These responses are very helpful to me. I look at them when I start doubting myself. Anyway thanks so much