I totally understand too. I looked my T's children up on Facebook. Both her daughters are stunningly beautiful whilst I struggle with feeling really ugly and fat. And when I thought it couldn't feel any worse t had written really lovely stuff on their FB page calling them lovely pet names and you could just tell she's such a lovely mum. I told her I was massively envious of her children and that I felt so guilty for feeling that way when my mum is so lovely but I was really wishing she was my mum. I still torture myself thinking about all the lovely things she will do with her children and how much time she will spend even just thinking about then when she probably only thinks about me for a few minutes before and after our session.