I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL RISSIE. i have the same problem w/my friends and more so w/my family. It's a continuous illness w/me and I kinda think maybe my family is afraid of me and what I might do. I only communicate w/friends over the internet or phone. I haven't been out w/anyone since I moved to NC. But I know how you feel and just as everyone else has been so supportive to me I will do the same for you. This is one friend that will never leave. puckyjan