Well, we just had a huge blowout. He is normally so mild-mannered - you'd think after 8 years together I'd be accustomed to the exceptions, but he started cursing and yelling because I wouldn't give him the password to MY computer (I don't even know why he needed it) because I thought he should be at school. I told him that he needs to leave the house - I will not be yelled at or cursed at, nor is it good for our baby to feel this tension, and he wouldn't leave. I started crying, and the more I cried, the louder he yelled and it ended with him breaking a bunch of stuff on his homework table and he stormed off somewhere ... I think he's still in the house but I'm not sure where. I just finshed a solid 20 minutes of sobbing my eyes out and now I don't know what to do. I had such hopes for getting stuff done today - the house just has piles and piles of bills and papers and magazines and clothes that doesn't magically disappear while I'm at work and today I wanted to tackle it all but this house isn't big enough for both me while trying to clean and an angry man. I resent the amount of effort it will take me to clean "around" him - I don't want the tension of being even on the same floor as he. Yes, I suppose *I* could leave, but it's MY HOUSE and MY DAY OFF. He's supposed to be at school right now!

I am beside myself and am starting to cry again.

I also just realized that he hasn't taken his meds today....