I think I must’ve used her up. I had called three times within the last week but then she no-showed for our remote video session on Wednesday. She's sick of me. I’m just too much.

I saw pdoc on Friday. She doesn’t know why T stood me up. It’s happening though, I know it. I’m too much and T is pulling away. Everybody does eventually. I understand. I’m sorry.

I'm anxious about seeing her in the office tomorrow. What if she brings it up? Or, worse, doesn't say anything about it at all?

How am I supposed to get past this? She's supposed to be the predictable one. She knows I have trouble with abandonment and being forgotten about. Or I thought she did.