I am trying...

I just can't see past my nose once again

i am confused again... lost.. feel a lack of direction.. desire.. needs..
I dont understand again.. nor know what to do and just want to hide in a deep cold dark place to enjoy quiet solitude until the beautiful end

such is life..

Time distortion and memory warps disallow the satisfaction ☹

I am just so tired, 28 years is too long to fight
also realized i would be 29 this year.. gee..
How...?