It does not seem possible to you now, but it will go away.
I have taken more than one pill of fokitall and it renders no real benefits.
Facing the music is the way to go, IMAO.
Change what you know you can, and let the other chips fall where they will.

I don't know why you can show the world who you really are. You must have your reasons.

I have everything a person can want and I'm myself.
Take it or leave it. Many depart, others arrive.
I think of it as a virtue. It takes practice thought.
You have to come to the total realization that the most important person in the universe, is you.
Without you, there's nothing.

Good luck. Cheers.