just letting you know I read your thread...

ummm

suicidal, falling apart, life being un manage able.... sorry crisis situations we cant do anything about, for that you will need to contact your treatment providers... there is also a gray box at the bottom of the page with addresses and phone numbers to call for help with crisis situations.

homelessness..... you not living on the streets, you have a roof over your head, you live with your uncle, so technically you are not homeless. the building you live in may not be something that you own yourself, but you do have a place to live, just like millions of other people who are renting a room in apartments and homes owned by other people.

my point look at the positives... you are .....not..... homeless and with out help. it may feel like it but unlike those who really are homeless you have a bed, meals a roof over your head and relatives you can live with and according to you your uncles place is better than living with your parents.

this is going to be hard for you to hear ((((Elevated)))) but to me it looks like you are back in your cycling again. with your mental disorders. contact your treatment providers so that they can help you get stabilized again.

we cant do anything about your crisis situations. All we can do is tell you if we are having or have had the same problems that you are and what we have done for it....

when i start my cycling through my mental disorder problems again I contact my treatment providers so that they can help me get stabilized again. I also enter treatment facilities when my cycling through my problems reach the point of crisis (suicidal, falling apart, helplessness, appearing to be helpless when Im not actually helpless and believing in things that are not true )

I'm sorry that I cant offer you any more but this site doesnt allow for crisis situations other than pointing each other to their treatment providers.