My T didn't even tell me about her vacation

Today I sent her an email because I had to tell her something. I got an automatic reply about that she's on vacation until 9th August. I do have kind of a rupture going on with her. But I saw her 2 weeks ago. She told me to think about when I want a next session and what I want and told me to email her. I had sent her an email about 1,5 week ago. She hadn't replied to that one (also no automatic mail, so). Usually she tells me when she has her vacation. Why didn't she told me when I saw her or why didn't she reply to my email then? Because I had some critism on the therapy and her? Because I didn't agree with her?
She is still my T. I feel like I'm left on my own.
I trusted her. I feel like I was so wrong about her. Not just because of this, but also about her behaviour in the last few months. I didn't expected this from her. I feel so stupid.
It hurts.