Im ok..
Not really asking for help; just maybe trying to reach out for understanding to ground myself in some manner to feel as though everything is not fake and that im not alone nor the only "real?" Person in this paradox?

I dont have a bed... none of my stuff.. and cant stay here.. just crashing for a few days was hoping i would figure things out but i guess im just gonna go back to dads where i also dont have a bed anymore... cant burden these people as they struggle enough and have been kind letting me stay this long



I just keep flipping and im so tired of it. Hate my world changing so many times in 1 day... but its ok, as long as i dont impulsively act on any bad thoughts or feelings i will be fine..

I know its the borderline part that keeps me from seeing over the hills and through the valleys. Being all the way 1 way or the other or being utterly empty and numb and struggling to feel inbetween...

But i am really just so exhausted and want a life.. but im concerned ill always be like this no matter what accomplishments or success i achieve 😞

Sorry for my usual ramblings... im just not together right now and guess i thought it was a good idea to post