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Psychologious · Jul 23, 2018, 07:43 PM

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Originally Posted by mote.of.soul

Hey Psychologious. Thanks for posting and sharing.

So, are you able to convince your mother to take you to see a doctor? Because if you're concerned that the blows to the head may have caused brain damage of some sort, or may have impacted your moods and thinking in negative ways, then that would be good enough reason to explain your concerns to a doctor with your mother present, and from there things should start to move forward for you. Because you deserve the support and care as much as anyone Psychologious. Yes, you're obviously an intelligent person with great potential.

Nope, I mentioned that issue to her but she doesn't like listening to things she doesn't understand. She's from another country & problems there were a bit around the level of pure survival for her. I'm pretty sure she doesn't understand & she probably has untreated issues herself, judging by the way she behaves.

Possible trigger:

I wish she understood the simpler things but I can't exactly approach her with the truth & tell her, "I want to kill other people & myself. Please help me." That sounds very wrong to a normal person with a minimal understanding of science or the malleability of the human brain. I'm pretty sure she would simply call the police or someone on me for that rather than emotionally support me. People rarely realize that criminals are beholders of preventable issues who deserve love. I think it's just the fact I've always been so self-aware enough that I can notice any change in me. I actually feel that my self-awareness makes me sound less believable to people; it has. It isn't every day that a school shooter tells everyone they are about to shoot up a school & they need you to stop them.

Also, the fact that I'm saying this may sound like I actually care about others rather than wish to hurt them; I do care. I don't want my insanity to hurt anyone, not even myself. I have drastic mood swings & I only make proper decisions for myself when I'm in the mood I'm in right now.