I am kinda annoyed with my t. I mentioned that I like to sit on the porch and watch the birds at the bird feeder. She said I use that as a distraction. I never thought of it that way. I thought of it as enjoying sitting on the porch and watching the birds. If that's a distraction than everything else I do is a distraction. What does that make my life? Its kinda of f'd up that this thought keeps rolling around in my head. Part of me thinks that there is a lot of truth in it but part of me now wonders if everything we do is just a distraction from the realities of living. This is the s**t that rolls around in my head.