I was prepared for my parents to die. My Dad had quadruple by-pass surgery around 1985. He lived to be 63 and died in 1993. I was prepared. He was miserable. My Mom lived to be 90 and died in 2010. I was prepared.

I never got to talk to my Dad about MPD/DID. I did get to tell him I had it one month before he died. But at that time I did not have the knowledge to talk to him about it. We were always estranged. I would have liked to explain his wife's behavior. Mom also was dissociative. Maybe not full DID/MPD but she did have a dissociative disorder. He knew she was mental but truly did not understand. Anyway, I understand your lost feeling. Hang in there.