Sisabel



Sisabel



I think you will eventually find that middle ground you seek. That feeling of anger at others is justified. And probably like me, it is such a strange, foreign sensation. It's downright scary, right? It is for me, too. Especially scary because you don't want to become an angry, bitter person.



You won't.



Just the fact that you notice it and it bothers you tells me you are a positive person. It's okay not to tolerate bad behaviour or mean, manipulative people. For me, it's unchartered territory, too. And a tiny bit of me wants to feel guilty for even experiencing that anger. But I truly have learned that a bottomless level of tolerance kept me from leading a happy life. It leads to constantly getting hurt and attracting more toxic people.



I had the unrealistic expectation that therapy, that after my psychologist helped me "put all the pieces together" I would be finished. Work done, job completed. Instead of that, therapy has taught me I have started on a life long journey. And that's okay, really. I have let go of so many heavy burdens that I carried. And I am allowing myself to feel emotions I never gave myself permission to feel before. Sure, it does feel mighty weird sometimes to find out everything is not my fault, including someone's bad behaviour.



Your feelings and emotions are yours, they are important, and you need to let yourself experience them. We are all on this journey together.