T is being really nice to me. Because of my sister's drama, my dad's dog attacking our dogs, him talking to me about sex, him berating me for something that was an accident, and my H's health problems, I'm feeling very suicidal. I saw her yesterday and she's allowing me to see her next week. I had a bad night last night and I called her. She called me back today and talked me through some things. I feel bad because right now she's my only support and I know she doesn't like that. But I can't live without her. I'm so grateful to have her in my life. I just want my H back too. I really need him right now. I don't think anyone is taking it seriously except my T. She knows I'm serious.