I tend to do this when I’m in an episode but not when I’m stable. I can remember once writing an email to someone at 8:30 (it was only a paragraph in length) and looking up at 12:30 still sitting at the computer just reading it over and over and over again. This is when my kids were really small and needed much more attention. I also obsess over people, like to a stalker degree, and find myself having imagined conversations with people out loud uncontrollably when I am either manic or mixed.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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