You are not alone Só leigheas.

I am going through the same issues right now. I have found it helpful to read some of the threads on here while suffering and no-one seems to be there for support.

It's so hard when we are brought down and feel tired by it all.

Have you ever heard of Pete Walker and his 13 Steps for Managing Flashbacks?

Pete Walker, M.A. Psychotherapy

Best wishes, love and hugs to you.