I struggle with social anxiety and depression,
The thing that really brings me down is worrying and ruminating about things...I ventured out on Monday, and I’ve been feeling real low and isolated..I went for a meal in a quiet place, I don’t usually drink and decided to have a couple of beers..when I returned to where I live I went into one of the village pubs, I guess as I’d had a drink I felt courageous and confident.

I had a couple more drinks in there..luckily I got home ok I’ve felt really ill since, as I’ve thought back and I feel such an idiot , I feel like I must have looked like I was looking to hook up with someone ..I recall a woman in there and she wasn’t really very nice when I spoke to a couple of people one guy had a lovely dog so I struck up a conversation with him about the dog she shouted over..I saw your wife yesterday, it was like she was warning me off...she said a couple of other things that when I realised the next day I felt so horrible...like a loose woman ,

I already don’t go out often and I’ve seen this woman and her partner in the village it’s put me off going out at all...and I’m ruminating about it all...
Feeling so anxious about it..I know I won’t be drinking again, it’s a long time since I had a drink and it doesn’t really agree with me ...
I just wish I didn’t feel so bad about myself and keep going over it...

I’m currently in therapy and am aware of mindfulness but when I feel like this it’s hard to get anything to work...