Thanks everyone. It seemed like such a good idea in my head last night, that I send it to him (I was planning on blocking him, so he couldn't contact me back). I will probably not send it though. It felt really good to just write it. I'd never date or go after someone like him again. And that helps too. I did learn from the experience. About myself. I was going through a lot, and not healthy. Writing the letter felt really good last night, and I will probably hone it. I don't want to tear it up. I personally don't think that tearing it up or burning it will make my feelings or trauma go away. It won't make the memory go away. I like the idea of keeping it and referring to it when I feel down. thanks.