My thinking is off. It is hard to explain.
Admitting to myself that I am an alcoholic....some how I am going to prove it.
And just drink as much as I can The drinks that I drink are high alcohol content, that is where I got into trouble.
My thinking is wrong.
it is like "yes I can drink because I am an alcoholic"....like I am giving myself permission to drink.
Does that make any sense?
bizi