Hey... I am feeling worthless and if nobody is close to me.... and what is blaming the people that did this to me is going to do? What is done cannot be undone. They... don't believe you need human contact to be "successful" (aka a topper in the whole city and eventually the state or perhaps even the country) person... they believe reading textbook and going to college will solve all of their problems.

My dad once told me "People do Ph.D by sitting at home" when I asked him recently why he doesn't let me go outside... so yeah, you don't need to read scientific journals or publish original papers or even go to college, you just need to read the textbook...lab experience doesn't matter. And no matter how many people tell you "it's wrong, you don't parent this way" even if it comes from teachers and doctors, you ignore it. Because you've just invented a brand new style of parenting, and they're just making your son turn in the wrong direction..

I have nerve damage. I don't think I'll last much long. I don't know; really.