I'm getting anxious about my therapy appointment tomorrow. It's the third appointment with this new therapist and I'm waiting/wanting to feel that "click" but I don't know that I will. She's much more abrupt than my former T and it always leaves me sort of speechless. I did all the homework (it's different for me being in a cognitive behavioral therapy--my former T never gave me homework and was a different orientation altogether) but I didn't cope very well between the two weeks of sessions and I know that I didn't. So we are going to have to talk about that, but it is hard to open up to someone that I don't trust yet. She's all, this is a safe space, blah blah blah but I don't feel like it is yet and I feel like she is impatient with me. I have some questions to bring up to her so I might bring this up too if I am feeling particularly brave (probably not). She asked me if I was this quiet with my former T and I said that I was so I feel like I need to be more talkative which isn't my norm. It's so hard trying to get used to someone else when I'm missing my former T so much. I'm trying hard to not compare the two because they are very different and anyone would compare unfavorably to my former T in my opinion. Ugh. I want tomorrow to be here and get this over with, but I also don't want tomorrow to be here so I don't have to face it.