I get stuck in a "loop" too. I've noticed since I went on a higher dose of Zyprexa that my mind has calmed down a lot; still, when bad things happen (like yesterday, when my son lost his job and we had to cancel our Caribbean vacation), my thoughts race and I think up all kinds of rotten stuff. Like somehow this is my fault for encouraging him to take that job and the fact that I've lost a great deal of money that I couldn't afford to lose. I'm on disability and those $100/month payments were just killing me. But I wanted to go SO bad that I sacrificed that money without thinking about it.

OK, at the risk of ruminating I'm going to stop this and go do something. Thinking about it won't do any good.