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Originally Posted by bpktvikesfan
I am scared of mania, it has led to too many destructive things in my life. The meds dont work so I have had to have ECT therapy on two separate occasions and that saved me but took a lot to heal from. I do like how confident I get when manic and wish i could be that way always.
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I’m an experienced ECT veteran, but I was in hospital at the time AND I was stuck in depression.
The med cocktail just has me flat, numb, empty. But I admit that I am self-destructive when manic. I was sometimes severely manic and I don’t know if there’s a word or slogan for long-term, short-of-full-blown mania?
For the past few days I’ve slowly been adjusting my meds. I was so ‘drunk’ (not from liquor!) yesterday that I took 20-minutes to arise from bed to get into my wheelchair. I’m going to have to work on that.