Thank you for the hugs everyone.


Nicole Flynn..thank you. Yes. Restorative justice. I really like that. That's how it felt last night.


Molinit...I appreciate your response but what can I say? I guess I'm just "weird and kind of off." That did not help me feel better. I am not trying to change him or trying to get him back. I want nothing to do with him. I also do believe that we can sometimes get closure. I feel like people lately, are very focused on this "but you don't always get closure aspect." Sometimes, you can though. I think I have focused on no closure long enough. From the trauma I experienced in 2016 from an ex during our breakup. I didn't get closure from that. I do have post traumatic growth though. And I'm still moving through it.


The reason I wouldn't send it, is because I'm not sure it would make me feel better. And in a sense, what Molinit said, has touched on a fear of mine. I DON'T want to seem weird and off and odd and strange and "the weird woman who can't let go." But the truth is, I don't know if I will send it or not. And I'm not in the position to even make that decision today. And who gives a **** what that asshole thinks. If we ever see each other on the street it should be him who wants to run, not me.


Now I'm thinking about writng to 2016 guy. He started this whole mess. I probably won't with him though. Idk. I don't trust.