I rarely cry. I cried a lot after my husband died (understandable) but only for a few months, then I shut it down. I don’t cry over him anymore. The last time I felt I was going to was at his grave this past Memorial Day and I just shut down so I wouldn’t cry. Otherwise when I am depressed I feel more dead inside rather than sad so I don’t cry. Usually it’s not until I end up IP, then I cry for the first couple of days that I’m there because I’m so frustrated that I ended up back in the hospital AGAIN.