I have been in the hospital a total of 3 times and tomorrow will be 4. I am going in tomorrow on my birthday, what a nice present. Not!!! I am prepared to be bored out of my mind. It is very boring at the hospital. The good news is that there are many groups that you go to. And at least with my hospital that I go to you also meet with a psychiatrist everyday. The only problem with that is that they only spend about 5 minutes a day with you and you feel very rushed. Sometimes a stay in the hospital helps me and other times it didn't really help. I hope tomorrow's stay will help me out of this suicidal thinking. I want hope in my life. But all I see is darkness and hopelessness. They also change your pills a lot. That is what I hope happens with me, I want to get off the anti-psychotics. I am not psychotic so why would I need them? That is the question of the day. Everyone is out to get me. I love the government. I love how they spy on people. Now they know I wrote this! How exciting!