I did see T on Monday. She invited me in from the waiting room with her sad-smile. Then right away said she owed me a huge apology. She took full responsibility for missing our meeting last week. She said she's been really busy because she's taken on probably too much in her evening hours. She just forgot. She said she felt horrible about it and wanted to know how I felt.

I cried (of course, *sigh*). I couldn't make eye contact for most of the session, worrying at my hands and stuff.

I said she was supposed to be the reliable and consistent person in my life. I asked if she only remembered because pdoc might've said something. She said no, that she didn't remember until Sunday afternoon when she went for a walk and had the opportunity to decompress. She said she'd talked to a colleague about it that day because it upset her so much or something.

T said she's not mad at me. She's not pulling away and I'm not too much.

It still really hurts that she just... forgot me. Will I be able to trust her again? Now I feel like a huge burden or something.