kiya i am not DID but i definitely know about disassociating... i can even answer questions when i have checked out... my kids figured that out when they were younger...and i found myself saying "what did i just say yes too?" i can tell you in detail what books he has on his shelf and the design in the rug i use to ground myself...but sometimes i have to call him and ask him what we talked about...i find myself watching the clock...knowing that i need to tell him soon...but not being able to find the words... that's why the journal works well for me most of the time... except that sometimes it triggers the urge to cut...you did a "great job" today...candy bar or not...lyn