The last time I saw someone else he said it undermined our work together and that I went behind his back (which I did). Then we made the infamous deal that I wouldn't act out and he would make a plan for me when he went away. That was last year and only for a week, this time around it will be for a month plus throw an exam in between that, so maybe I feel justified in acting out, but what's so bad about trying to keep myself stable and safe?