I love the Calm app. Did a meditation. Slightly less wired now. Took a long walk, did grounding etc for the past IDK how long.

Now thinking I'll channel the BUZZ into posts on Reddit because composing stuff where I got to think slows my brain down. Not personal posts but links to research and commentary haha.

I know you're right that he might not click with my T.

I wish my T would say she won't take him on...

Honestly I really don't want him to see my T. He himself might not want to as well because T knows a lot about him due to me :/ Like I'm not "gossiping" about him in a mean way to my T but talking about my issues related to my friendships, secondary trauma I experience because sometimes he discloses horrific stuff...

And honestly while I've always focused on my issues, my reactions etc, T knows a lot...which should they be therapist-client...shoukd be things he reveals only when comfortable. :/

And that other friend... They replied "lol" when I asked them to not talk about their therapy to me. Ugh...