There are things that can't be changed for the better. There are children with terminal illness, then i listen to the radio and there is a fricken happy song on. Dont' they understand what is happening? Everything is trivial, the news is trivial, the elections are trivial, global warming is trivial, the school shootings in america are trivial, it's all trivia.

I don't care if the sun explodes, i'm sure by then humans will have the technology to fix it, i'm just sick of thinking of things that have no relevance to my life at present and worrying or geting depressed about them. I also have trouble finding a good psychiatrist at the moment.

Whatever happens, happens. I am just sick of stressing over it. This has been happening since last august, so it's been about 6 months now. I worry about dying so much i think of killing myself and it makes me relieved cos there is always a way out. But then that doesn't make sense cos suicide is dying too.

Sick of going round in circles.