No, you just want your old self back - not greedy at all to expect that.
I know how you feel... I'm a shadow of my former self and have trouble holding a conversation too. I also want my former self back.
As you say, you are lucky to be stable for four years. Maybe it's time to practice talking with people to redevelop those skills.
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* Dx: Bipolar II (finally, after years at Bipolar NOS)
* Rx: minimal dose of Lamictal
My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in July 2016.
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