I don't think you're being greedy. I don't mind meds in the short term, and they've been life-saving in many storms, but for me, the cost was just too high (both literally and figuratively).

I live alone, have a job, and manage my own home, so zonking out just isn't an option. If someone offered to manage my life for me, I would enjoy being on meds, because they worked and made me feel great. Instead, I just live with mood fluctuations and try to lead a healthy lifestyle, and I can also drive safely and balance my checking account. It's not like I have such an exciting life, for sure, but it's enough, ya know?

I expect I'll cycle again and think it's sort of inevitable, given the nature of bipolar, but in the meantime I won't be a slave to it.

Edited: I just saw your note about psychosis. I've been treated with APs since the 1970s, but to my knowledge I've never been psychotic -- I mean, strictly speaking, like unable to discern reality -- so I can't speak for that. I really don't know what psychotic people go through, but it must be pretty hard...