I’m totally on edge about this job interview. I can’t gauge how it went. I’m more worried about whether my old supervisor is going to give me a positive reference or not. If they ask him about my attendance last year that might screw me. I’m not sure if they can ask specific questions like that though or if they can only ask if he would recommend me as an employee. I just need this job so badly I really think I would be good at it and that it wouldn’t trip my bipolar too much.

I have an mri for my back schedule for next tuesday. Hope I will be able to attend and get some answers and maybe a treatment plan for my back. It’s keeping me from doing a lot of things at this point, namely cleaning. I want to clean my son’s room but I know I won’t be able to bend over enough to actually pick up all the **** that’s on the floor. I know I should make him do it but it’s just easier if I do lol.

Ugh I just can’t stop thinking about my interview. I will be crushed if I don’t get this job. It’s the only one I think I have an actual shot at. I’m obsessing. I need to stop. I’ll never sleep tonight.

I slept all day again so that will contribute to me not sleeping either.