.... and now I am wondering why t had to go and say what she did about wasted time. DOES she think I wasted her time this past 6+ years? DID she collude with me in letting me come twice a month for so long? I can't think like that I can't! We can't go back in time and change anything even if I did/she did. All we can do is go forward now. But I feel stupid. I'm so ****ing tired of feeling stupid. Just had a margarita I think I'll have another. I emailed her some stuff already before I started drinking. So now I have to save the rest of it for next week. Flip it all anyway. Why is therapy so stupid hard?!?!?!!?!!