what I find strange today....why do I have to go back to my traumas and try
to rework them...they are over...nothing will change those traumatic happenings..
done little turtle...I guess that is ptsd..probably...I am not only strange but I have been weak and I have been bad...and I did wrong...and everything..

BUT I GUESS THAT IS LIFE...maybe for all of us...we have feet of clay..but I can't go to jail for what I am thinking right now....and that is going to be OK...I am working on it...