I wrote T a letter today as well, Yesterday's was 4 pages, today was 6. LOL. At this rate, the poor guy will be reading stuff all of August....

It's gonna be really hard to decide what to give him and then what we don't discuss out loud, I gotta wait longer on for him to read and discuss next week. Today's was super important though, I think I may have to try to read most of it in session.

I had a breakthrough thought this morning and actually, I'm completely unanxious about him dying now. That's largely what I wrote about. Granted, this is still hard and I'm anxious as heck about him cutting off contact forever and things changing with us when he's back but this huge weight is off me, so that's something.