Yes he did. He apologized at the end but it didn't feel sincere and to me just felt tacked on. He didn't have to say or do anything other than just give me the space to let me cry, and i would have forgiven him eventually like all the times before, but it's unrealistic that it's demanded from me.

I just got back from the house the day before and had a whole week to be told that I was rubbish, a mistake and sworn at amongst other things. I wanted him to be softer and more gentle- but i felt like I was being attacked, my child parts shut down and I find it hard to talk because I can't.

The look at what i'm offering sounded just like something my father would say. I'd still have to pay for the session on the 31st and he earns some extra spending money. I'm not against T's going on holidays but i wanted a plan in place. I brought up email contact at an arranged time, we talked about it but he never agreed to it. He was the one who said I was special and had oh so much value and that I mattered , I feel like he twisted that around too.