Whoa. It's been interesting for me...

xD Make that two asexuals..I'm starting to dislike the males in general.
I had that issue once with long-distance dating. Used to have a boyfriend who had had sex before, and I ended up sexually attracted to him,too. It was a very stupid move for me; he ended up moving on quickly and I ended up having to cope. I thought I did find my soul mate. The good news is that I didn't actually have sex with him.

I only recently got over him (I was SO in denial) and tried dating again, which led to frequent rejection (funny, the guys didn't seem so distant when I was taken..) which led to me giving up on relationships in general. Not until I find a guy who isn't afraid to commit.

Oh, about my last ex...he was White. His sister would call me the n-word on the sly when he was talking to me, and his mom acted funny when I wasn't talking to her.

It hurt me when we broke up because I thought we'd last longer than that. It cut me so deep that I started questioning my sexuality, withdrawing, and losing weight. But now that I'm over it, I'm fine. I just don't trust men much anymore. But back on the topic *sweat*

Sometimes I do feel like I have to prove myself more when around a lot of Whites, because you do get discriminated against a lot. My friend (also African-American)heard a conversation in a store:

A senior was getting a great scholarship to a high-ranked college. A White woman asked, "Oh, are you going for a basketball scholarship?" She didn't even think that he was smart enough to get one for academia.

I don't get as heavy discrimination because I'm very light. But my mom points out how her boss (also White) happens to give raises more often to White employees. She's darker than me, respectively.

As far as my country (America)'s standards are..
The ideal woman is extremely skinny, White, and has Blond hair and Blue eyes. Then comes White brunettes and redheads, and then Hispanic and Asian women, and THEN African-American women. If we're even on the list..

Seriously,on a TV show they asked a group of men with their own preferences different questions. They had different races of women, all beautiful, for their decision-making. When they were asked what women they'd like to marry, only one man picked the African-American woman. There was nothing wrong with her and I bet you if she was another nationality she would have a wider amount of men having chosen her!

It's become "unfashionable" to be our race here. You barely see our race in fashion magazines anymore, and you're treated quite literally like the Black Sheep in America.