I opened up to my mom today about how I feel towards my dad. I used the song "Let You Down" by NF to do so. Slowly, I'm trying to trust and open up more to her. After the song was done, she hugged me and told me she was sorry that she doesn't step in to keep my dad of my back. I told her it was okay and that I didn't blame her for that.

(Possibly triggering)


Anyway, she told me she loved me and she wants to have a talk with my dad. I told her not to but she seems dead set on it. I just don't want it to make things worse, you know? Regardless, I'm glad her and I have a real relationship now and have worked through all of the past's crap. The fact that I can open up to her about things now is something I never knew I needed. I know not everyone has that opportunity, so I don't want to take it for granted.

Just thought I'd share that. I'm starting trauma therapy in two or three weeks, and I'm nervous but I'm ready to put the past in the past.