Most of the reasons I left here was because of our being in danger of losing our home because of back taxes. We've been jumping through hoops for months with no end to the issue. We now have to get a reverse mortgage and I'm scared to do this without my father. I can't totally rely on anyone ...I'm getting paranoid and very suspicious. All that stress combined with finding out for sure that my "family of origin" seriously hated me. Took me long enough to finally figure it out but I still have been given no reasons why. That's enough to make me question every move I make and every word I say. THe fact that we were living on very little money finally pushed me into IP. I was in there so long I was embarrassed to come back here. I'm still very overwhelmed and scared about many things.
I really wish I knew why my mother and father hated me....but I'm not sure I could handle the answer.