I have these constant thoughts that I'm a complete failure. That I've never made a single right decision in my life. That I'm just wasting away and I'm never getting better. I'm 31 but feel like I have the security of an 18-year old.
No matter where I turn I'm reminded of my own inadequacies, why everyone is better off than me. I'm so sick of myself, I want to crawl out of my own skin. Do you know the feeling?

I was put on 300 mg Venlafaxin about 4-5 weeks ago. On one hand I can feel them kicking in these last few days - a certain lightness, less anxiety - but on the other hand I'm still feeling awful. They can't fix the state of my life or the loneliness that's always been there.

I just don't know what to do. I feel I'm in a cul-de-sac. I'm so suicidal.