It is getting worse every day. I feel a little better for a day or at the most a couple of days and then sink back into depression for a week again before I can get a couple of good days again. I have to push myself to do even self-care like brushing my teeth or take shower. I feel bored yet too lazy and unmotivated to do anything...exercising seems like a chore...I m getting fat and I feel guilty and bad, yet I can't push myself to even walk indoors. Going out of the house seems impossible too. I can't force myself to do housework like clean my room, cook or do laundry. And I am feeling restless inspite of the anhedonia...life seems such a drag.

All I can do is accept that I won't get better and that all I can hope to achieve is having as many good days as possible.