It's one of those days today, full of conflict within.

Good things are happening in my life and I don't know where I'm heading.

I recently received a certificate from the CPD Division of clinical Psychology which is doctoral level. I'm doing a heap load of training with them. That's cool, yeah? But I don't have a degree so how come they are letting me do doctoral level?

Whenever I mention this to people they are like super duper excited for me but all I can think of is.... what the hell am I doing???

Maybe they made a mistake giving me the certificate?

I didn't really realize what it was and handed it to my boss at work and he put it in my folder, but it's dawning on me now....... this could all change my life. For the better but I'm not good with change.

At work at the moment I just work with children with special needs. I don't get paid much but it's a very rewarding job. What happens when I have finished all this clinical psychology training? I want to continue working with children.

I don't know what the %#@&#! I'm doing!!! Sometimes I think maybe I'm just completely mad, but heck I've been working really hard.

I guess I have got to stop thinking about it all and just get on with it. T is away this week so I can't speak to him, so thanks for listening friends.