Found it, you're an "Associate Fellow"?

http://www.bps.org.uk/membership/eli...ate-fellow.cfm

Why can't you continue as you're doing, just with nice training that helps pad the "bottom" if you fall? I don't think anyone is going to drag you, kicking and screaming, into a life you don't want?

When I first went to the dentist when I was 5, after a year or two I got to know the dental hygenist, "Brownie," a nice older woman, very comforting, etc. but she started talking about how, when I grew up, I could be a dental hygenist. Problem is, I didn't understand how that worked and thought when I grew up some group of adults or something would tell me what I had to work at and I really didn't want to be a dental hygenist :-) It worried me quite a bit for a few years until I could understand that one got to pick what one wanted to do.